You can close your eyes to things you don't want to see, but you can't close your heart to things you don't want to feel.

School was quite ok today , but it's v boring . I hate things that happened for th last few days , srsly . Unhappy things that happened cant seem t get off my mind , i don't even knw why . Thinking abt it would just make me sad , make me cry , doing things t distract myself , it failed . Ppl arnd me changed , they don't seem t understand me anymore , or perhaps im th one who changed but npe , i don't think that i've changed . Nobody can understand why would i cry over for some things , iknw that i would also cry over for just small lil things , but would you knw how much it hurt ? I don't think you'd understand , you've change t a person who i rlly cannot understand . I tried real hard , but everytime it just failed . I wna give up , i don't want t hang on anymore but iknw i can't because iloveyou still . You knw i hate being alone , im afraid t be alone , i never want t be alone . Th feeling is just rlly v scary , if i were t dig out my past , some things has brought my self-esteem , my confidence , my pride down . My past , you shld knw it clearly . But i've tried t change , @ least im way btr thn lasttime . I might be sensitive , this is th way i am . Im serious abt relationships always , maybe lasttime i might not be v serious but now .. i am . Especially our relationship , im v sensitive of some of th things you do , please forgive me abt this . Sensitive is not because i wna be unreasonable , is because i rlly wna care , iknw that i get hurt easily but because you're th one i love . Some things you might be hiding it frm me , idk but i hope you'll not hide anyt frm me . I just hope that you'll be honest w me in everyt , i don't want if thr's anyt i need t find it out frm someone or i have t find it out myself . Thr's still alot of things i wna tell you but im not gg t type it out here , so yea .

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Been crying this few days , i can't stop my tears frm rolling dwn my cheeks . Pretending that im ok infront of people , faking a smile . I guess im alr breaking down (: . Well , let's not mention anyt anymore . Just printed my timetable out , this coming weeks gna be stress as mid yr exams is coming . Andand , im gna have mood swings too , hope you'll bear w me , hah . Im rlly hoping that everyt would change and start moving smoothly agn .