It takes only a minute to get a crush on someone, an hour to like someone, and a day to love someone, but it takes a lifetime to forget someone.

Ohwell , totally no mood ._. ! It srsly sucks , to always argue . Im giving up , breaking down . But im forcing myself to fake a smile infront of everyone , it really hurts alot . Asked you for it ytd night , as i've thought that im not your cup of tea , but you refused until this morning and i insisted . But still , at the end , i changed my mind because i still love you alot and i know that i cannot even let you go . I really do , i don't know if you'll doubt me but i hope you will not . From monday till this morning , im really very very upset , it's like the hopes with me are totally gone . But im still hanging on , hoping that there's a change in everything , but .. it's been half a year .. nothing change . I totally have no more confidence and the courage that i first have from the starting of this relationship , to really move on anymore . Will you bring back the trust , the courage and make me confident once again or is it not possible .. ? Crying this few days , it won't help but i only can cry just to make myself feel better . I swear and i know im useless , the things you said to me made sense , but im the one who can't accept what you've said to me . The reason why im not able to accept it is because .. it's really very hurting and yea .. i can't hold back my tears but to let it out only by crying , what else can i do ? Cry cry and cry , im sucky enough to give you all this nonsense . Im trying very hard to change , but i can't . I really don't know what to do .. things keep popping out in my mind and im not able to forget it , i can't help but think of it . I know you did asked me not to think so much , but i can't .. sigh . I just hope that things change , to make things work out . I don't want things like this to happen again . Iloveyou , boy (L) .